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Friday

11th July 2008

Last Friday was my roughest day. Did a superb mistake which it should NOT be made at all. I can't understand 'why' it such a mess here. I just caused the whole branch to be down for a stupid mistake that my PM should be aware of it, but not only he do not, he request me to proceed.

'Laughing at myself' Welcome to TM~

Thank to GOD, the installer (Mr. Wong) quickly went to the customer site and re-install the NT again. Thank you so much...I was relief. Since the incident happened during lunch hour (friday prayers), there was not much I can do...except awaits the update from Mr. Wong. I was dead tired calling each personnel at the data exchange by then, hence I actually slept for 30 minutes (sleeping with so many things in my mind).

I was lucky as Mr. Wong rang me up and he stated it was OK and running. I became calm...and right then it HITS me: This is not 'Mei'. I should be contented and smiling widely BUT I felt so ANGRY at myself. It hits me REAL HARD this time.

I sat down at my living room for quite some time (thinking)...Grab my car key and walked in the office and once again clean up the MESS.

Although the sales job is pretty flexible here yet I disagree on the tools/system that currently been practised. I don't see the rational of it. There's too many of reporting of status whereby these are those 'things' that should be clear cut. I dislike when people kept pushing me to give in status but all they know is just to complete their job..I mean c'mmon. There is no initaitive to act on it rather than report to the upper management. 'Laughing at myself again' .

I'm SURE that this is not the platform that I tend to build. It meant nothing to me. Can't deny, the benefits are great, mobile fees, increment of petrol claims, data broadband for FREE, laptop and etc, yet it shouldn't be the main constraint that holding me back. I have no commitment and I know sooner or later I'll move forward.

I just got to..

Went back home and I just got the rush to edit my resume. I was stumbled cos I have no idea what to write for my current job. Slept at 9.30pm as I was really drained out (mentally). I slept soundly..and I dreamt in becoming 'Mei' silently.

I just go to...

Remarks:

Thanks to my closest soul mate: Orange, as we managed to spend some time together. It's been a while since we sat and chat. It's nice to catch up with you gal...and oh the scenery at your apartment~that's life. Next time around, we'll opt for the wine :-)

Sincerely:

Mei